I was never thin. I was always a chubby kid. When I was young, I liked to fantasize about people gaining weight— it gave me a funny feeling but I never knew what it was. I always tried to quash the feeling because it was too tense and “unpleasant”. Later on, in middle school, I found sites like dimensions library and the like and realized that I was an FA as well as someone who really enjoys the feederism culture.
My mom put me on Jenny Craig in high school, thinking that “this was getting out of hand.” It was at an odd point— it was at a point at which I was starting to love my body and get used to it. I was coming to terms with the fact that I was chunky at that was okay. And… because I was at that point was probably the reason being put on Jenny Craig by my parents was so devastating. It took a while, but I lost 38 pounds.
Then I started college. As much as I had been battling it, I gave up around March, and the freshman fifteen caught up with me. I thought I would be upset that I was halfway to undoing all the work I had done on Jenny Craig, but the main reason I’m upset, I realized, was that my parents were going to berate me for it. I didn’t dislike how I looked— I DON’T dislike how I look. But I’m worried about how my parents are going to react when they see me and realize I’m no longer so picky or meticulous about what I eat. And I’m worried about them nagging me.
And it’s funny, because I want to be fatter. I want to be the size I was before I was put on Jenny Craig— bigger, even. Just typing this out is giving me the weirdest euphoric feeling. I think the only thing stopping me is that I’d have to buy all new clothes as I gained weight, which I can’t afford. But if I could, I’d probably let the fuck go. And the best part is that, since my partner is an FA too, she wouldn’t nag me about being fat either!
It’s funny— I’d never felt more at peace with myself than last night when I was lying in bed with her. “My tummy got bigger,” I said. “It got prettier,” she responded, and squeezed it. I want there to be more for her to squeeze.
I just started dating a wonderful guy, who is, as an added bonus, rather fat and its just lovely. I’m still so scared that if he ever found out that I’m an FA, it would kill his self esteem. Nobody seems to understand that first and foremost I like the person, not just their size. I’m worried about what would happen if he ever asks about it.
I’ve found the best way to nap and sleep with a fat girl is to have her lay on her back with an arm out to rest your head on and spooning beside her, cradling her tummy with your free arm. With legs tucked under hers as she has hers bent. This is really comfortable and tops spooning.
(Source: faconfessions)
I have loved overweight women since I was 10 years old. After reading about Marilyn Monroe getting “fat” at size 15, I noticed that it’s that way all over the place! Every girl at class who was only like 6 pounds overweight was constantly confronted by the popular kids, and although breasts are the one thing men nowadays see in a woman, fat ANYWHERE else is hellish in this society.
When I read up on medieval history at 6th grade, chubby women were seen as rich, or at least rich enough for the luxuries, and Having a large backside and hips actually HELPS with giving birth!
As a 14 year old, I got more into the internet, and since I sucked terribly at Biology, I didn’t listen in sex education. (even if I wanted to listen to it, all the guys would hoot like monkeys, and during the anonymous Q&A they’d just write dirty words and the teacher wouldn’t get to any of my questions. *>_>) Basically I had to learn it all on the web… (insert messed up midget zombie futa porn here) but I learned later on that breasts and butt are mostly fat. This led to 2 inquiries:
-Why is all other fat hated?
-Why shouldn’t breasts be ridiculed too?
I guess I’m rambling since no one at school thought nearly the same way… and being the “ask to learn” type, I ended up how I am on the subject of fat.
If you really read my garbage, unorganized ramble and don’t have a douchey response, THANK YOU for reading…. (but if you do have one, shoot yourself. >:()
PS: even thought being overweight is beautiful beyond belief (<3), I’m not a pervert who only sees a chubby/fat woman as living porn: I feel for them too. Even taking the FA part of me out, I was like some lonely kid who ended up trying too hard to impress people, getting shunned by 2 schools in a row… mostly because I’m slightly overweight and a nerd… and seeing as how the popular girls in school can be meaner than the average bully, it seems only natural that those chubby goddesses in school would have some troubles similar to mine.
Submitted by “Gottaproblim”
So I don’t know if I truly count as a confession but I love this blog and feel like this would be an excellent place to get this off my chest. I’m a big girl, size 24US to be exact, and I completely love myself but I’m so confused as to why guys don’t love me for everything I am. And then I remember many guys are stuck to the idea that fat girls are undesirable, but clearly they haven’t met me! I wish all guys could see true beauty, because I’d probably be in a lovely relationship by now!
Bigger guys are just so warm and cuddly. I enjoy the chub. I’m like a magnet to it. It’s nice.
It’s almost been a month since the last submissions. We’re now at 200 followers, with a lot less activity. Don’t be afraid, do your part and submit a confession!
i remember when i was younger and i watched a lot of disney movies (still do but only the older ones and the pixars) i had a fascination with ursala from the little mermaid. ignoring the fact that she was kinda old i really thought she was pretty. I lived in San Francisco at the time near mission street and many women around me were not of the “normal” size, especially my mom. I moved to Sacramento after moving from SF to Vallejo, and remember the first girl i crushed on in Sac was a girl named ana, who had a big belly and waist and continued admiring her and befriending her through high school.
I actually admired many girls in high school. The only thing is I never acknowledged my fascination with BBWs (now I have upgraded to SSBBWs) and it has prevented me from persuing any relationships in high school that could have carried on into my college years. I think it was because of how public relationships in high school are and how one was seen as deviant if you didnt go after the thinner or more or less averge-built girls. And because I was a shy little-shit too when it came to talking to most girls.
But in college I thought I had found my freedom to show a woman what a loving man I could be without any fear of being stigmatized. Well at first I can, and i still can. It would have been easier at first because no one knows you and you dont know them so a stranger’s comments can’t faze you too much. But I was not over my shyness and was still in the fat closet. Plus many of my friends were going to my school and hanging out in the same area i was so it made it hard to hit on any girl and not fear what my friends were thinking.
I also work at my schools gym so while the guys stare at walking sticks, they expect a reaction out of me as well, which i say she has a pretty face (cuz yeah, you cant deny someone has a pretty face if they have a pretty face, plus i’m not a pig that cat-calls girls and insults them with comments like check out that ass as if it was all there was to a woman). But unlike my horny coworkers, i cant ask how pretty the girl with the wide hips and pertruding belly looks because they will look in disgust or laugh at her simply because she is fat and not skinny and then put me down for liking big girls. This is both hurtful to me and it also makes me angry sometimes. I mean, if you were to take a girl like jessica alba, jennifer lopez, or alicia keys and add about 150lbs (or hell sometimes its bad enough to just add anywhere from 10-50lbs on a women according to our society, unless its just to their ass or boobs) they are now ugly. What the fuck? Not to mention if she knew she was receiving that ridicule from employees both male and female, she will never come to the gym again. that means if she was trying to lose some weight, either because she is tired of the assholes in her society bringing her down or because she wants to maintain a healthy lifestyle, she is deterred from ever working out at our facility or even working out in general. Fuck you society, fuck you.
I am doing a little better, I mean I have had one relationship with a girl at some jc, and i was the one initiating the conversation (^5 myself). But I still have this idea that i cant just talk to a girl, ask her out and have a wonderful relationship because of this pressure of defying the social norm. I mean that girl i started a relationship with i brought home to meet the mom who was telling me that she is ugly and fat. She really just meant fat because ugly implied fat. And this girl wasn’t ugly she just had a ginormous belly and large butt and boobs and a pretty face yet to my mom she was ugly.
Now mind you, i get it. Obesity comes with health issues, but so does anerexia. I do admit that I would want a wife who I could go and do some sports together and go on hiking trips or exercise with (my exercise is doing light weights and swimming plus sports). And with a girl weighing over 300lbs+, this may not be a possibility.
Also, I think many of us FAs don’t realize that our fascination with fat and large women is more lustful than loving. Its a preferance that if you were to find the most perfect BBW/SSBBW with the best mind and soul and stuck the mind and soul in a thinner woman/twig, you would probably love the thinner woman/twig just as much, despite the lose of rolls and squishiness.
But hey I’m with you guys too. I would rather have a woman that I can’t reach my other hand when i hug her. because of my environment growing up (its the only thing that explains it), i prefer larger women. A BBW is nice but an SSBBW is even better for me. I hope to one day find a girl who is quite large but i do not focus on weight alone. I look for a genuine personality and intellectual background. To be in it just for the sex will pretty much destroy any relationship guys, so hopefully you are looking for something more than fat. I know I am. And that their is a certain objectification that applies to BBWs and SSBBWs that I think we FAs need to put an end to, such as the BBW/SSBBW porn industry and feeding. Yeah, I look at porn too and like it, but seriously guys we gotta try breaking away from this. If we wanna support our large women to be accepted into society as normal, it shouldn’t be through video taping of women being fucked for the business’ profits and men’s (and some women’s) erotic entertainment. And feeding is also something i see as counter progressive to the fight of size acceptance because it is putting many women at risk of becoming unhealthy. Ladies, if you like to eat thats fine, but if a man wants you to get fatter thats when you really need to think about who you are placed in society. If you aren’t fat because you want to be fat, then why would you get fatter for someone else? Don’t let men subordinate you, dont change for society, and be happy with yourself and do what you need to do to make yourself happiest.
John Luke
